My Pleasure Is In Your Pain

I find joy and pleasure youâ??re my pain
Cause Iâ??m not a normal teenager, your predictable girl
Iâ??m a cutter, grunge, punk, and at times Iâ??m Goth
But whoâ??s to say what I am?
Sure Iâ??m a freak, I donâ??t mind
What makes me happy is seeing the way that you hate
It might be sick, it might be wrong
But I love it when you constantly nag at me
About who or what it is that you want me to be
I sit and laugh as you lecture me some more
Iâ??m not saying that itâ??s funny
Itâ??s just stupid youâ??re saying this when you donâ??t even care
The way that you glare somehow makes me smile
Maybe I only do it because it makes you even madder
And I love the look of and anger in your eyes
When weâ??re in public you try to cover it with a disguise
But I know exactly what youâ??re thinking
Every second you grow with hate
But I donâ??t care
It only fills my little heart with joy
Itâ??s like a little kid in a candy store
The way you raise your hand to me
Then slowly put it back at your side
It doesnâ??t work anymore
Iâ??m not afraid of you life before
Because now all of this just amuses me
Your face gets red as you boil with hate
You look like your about to explode
But if literally that happened
I swear Iâ??d laugh so hard Iâ??d pee my pants
I get my joy from your hate and your pain
But what are you to do?
Every time that I see you glaring at me
I canâ??t help but burst out laughing
You pretend and try to be so serious
But when you walk you trip and fall flat on the floor
I just canâ??t help but point and laugh
Then walk away still laughing to myself
And through all these times that Iâ??ve made fun of you
Yo've never once said anything back to me
But I love it just that way
Or when you say and pretend that you donâ??t care
I look into your eyes and I sit its there
I watch you walk away and you trip up the stairs and skin your knee
I think to myself only you could manage that
Your pain is my pleasure
Your hate and anger is what keeps me going
Your hate, anger, and pains is my joy