I think im sick

I think im sick.
And it wont go away.
The wounds feel thick.
And have caused such dismay.
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Medicine wont help this.
What am I do do?
The only reason this sickness exists.
Is because of you.
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You caused this pain.
You brought me to this.
And I dont say this in Vain.
Take time and reminisce.
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When I actually needed you.
Have you ever been there?
Dont act as if you hardly knew.
You know you were aware.
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My heart fell to shatter.
It was so hard to survive.
But that didnt matter.
As long as your dream was alive!
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Well I'm only 15.
I was maybe 9 at the time.
I wasnt even a teen!
And you say I made it through FINE!.
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No mother.
No dad.
An as$ hole brother.
And you say your mad!.
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Well screw you mom.
You try and live in my shoes.
You try and stay CALM!
You want me to do more!?! I REFUSE!

(c) 2005 JP