Daybreak,
Once again I watch as the sun creeps over the horizon
Slowly, with a menacing fashion.
Overcome with that familiar feeling, I sigh.
It showers me with its antagonizing rays,
Portraying nothing but false pretenses.
Yet another realization...
Another eternity I prevail.
I feel the hands of despair grip tightly
How will I ever break free?
Would you deny me the air in my lungs?
In a humane sense, no.
Yet without you I have no existence
You are the air I breathe,
The blood that circulates throughout me.
Hard and fast I fall,
Back into reality's cold and barren embrace.
It welcomes with me a distanced illusion.
You've taken flight -
Off on a journey
To seek answers to the questions you behold.
Every day I witness as you soar higher and higher.
I smile -
How beautiful it is to watch you transcend.
With my head held high, a tear in my eye,
I know you will be all right.
The tear is hot and with one quick swoop
It falls...
Searing the skin beneath that only guided its way.
I wonder why.
It was meant to be this way, they say;
But they don't know -
A brush of the hand -
A stolen glance -
Overrated? Never -
Merely taken for granted.
Isn't love supposed to hurt?
Two souls connected...
The unspoken words, mutual understanding -
Why does it come and go?
The piercing of the arrow to the heart.
Appreciation is they key - the rest
A mere memory.
And so, this thing we call life, continues on...
An endless, uphill battle -
Just what are we fighting for?
Reciprocation?
It's a fallacy.
Two lives merged, heart and soul -
Torn apart by sounds and syllables.
Does the mind conceive emotion?
That oh so powerful force, ruling over, always.
Regret -
Unavoidable!
They say it helps to evolve.
Indeed, I have watched you grow -
Strong and healthy, invincible, even.
Your roots are fearless and uncontainable -
Spreading like wildfire in a desert wasteland,
But they have been detached.
No longer are you there -
My lifeline - vanished
Memories, the secrets held close in the night, come to life,
Sprung on me with undying force.
I want to escape from this grip but I can't...
Immobilized and locked by their each and every entanglement.
I call out to you -
Only to suffocate in disappointment,
The bombardment of that echo.
The hollow, empty sound of a voice,
A voice that remains unanswered...
A heart left to bleed.
Crippled with grief, I crawl -
Into the shadows.
The only sound...
The beating of my heart.
It's deafening! Make it stop -
Please, make it stop!
The sunlight -
Now permanently masked by the impending malice of the cloud
Of your mere memory.
This is not how it should have been.
I see your silhouette soaring through the skies -
You cast a glance downward
Momentarily, our eyes lock.
And then it happens...
This grieving chamber skips a beat.
Could this be real?
Could this be true?
You, this amazing creature...
Uninhibited, beautiful, up in the canvas of blue.
I cry out, with arms stretched wide.
I cannot let you forget -
There's too much in the balance!
As you approach, dizziness overwhelms -
I try to look up but am blinded.
The rays you secrete are that of pure enlightenment.
You are so close,
I can almost reach you.
No matter how I try, I can't get to you.
Sadness and frustration -
Drowning me with a fierce undertow;
Pulling me down beneath the lonely waters.
I'm alone again -
Fighting for the chance to survive;
Fighting for the chance to love again.
Again, this once content being's heart-
Beats alone...
I thrash around -
Trying to avoid the inevitable.
I'm going under...
The mystical hands are beckoning me from within.
Defeat is near.
Exhaustion is bearing the embrace.
All the while I think of you...
I call out the eternal promises we made.
I will not give up; I just can't.
The love bursting from deep within me -
Out every way it can;
The chains fall free.
The road to my heart is a passage that's clear.
The water turns warm -
The clouds part...
I smile.
It's been a long time since I have done that -
Tears of happiness almost drown me in elation.
I look up towards the sky -
You are still at a distance;
But I can feel your soul again.
I direct a wave of love so great up into the air,
Up your way...
Though the wind now picks up...
It is always in your power to grasp it.
