Every since I was little you barley were there and as I grow older I realize I can make it with out you I don't need you I have other people who really do care about what happens to me and I'm sure that they don't care what grades I get because they like me for me not for what I get or what I have.Every time I thought of suicide it's because of you and the unforgettable memories you left me with to handle I'm to young not to have a father figure what I don't understand is I've expressed my feelings the best way I can and I still feel like theres more built up inside me the demons deep inside that hate me for what I did to myself because you were barley there the bad habits and addictions I have smoking and drinking to try and help me forget you but every day that goes by your still there stabbing at me saying I'll never come back to watch you grow and those were the last words I heard you say before the door shut and you where gone for good I never thought that your really did mean it but as the seconds minutes hours days weeks months and years go by I had to face it you did really disappear from my life sometimes I wish you would disappear from my memory please some one help me I don't want to shed another tear on something that well never be better.
