Have You Ever Wondered Why

Have you ever wondered why
when things seem so grey
the lowest times in your life
everything thinks that you're okay

have you ever wondered why
when you feel like breaking down
when you feel so much pain
no one is ever around

have you ever wondered why
you depend on the blade
the more and more you cut
you grow further from being saved

have you ever wondered why
scary thoughts come to your head
have you ever wondered why
you want so bad to be dead