I do not like it but I will accept it

Suicide on my mind and it gets in deep, the thoughts in my head keeps me from sleep.
The things I see in my dreams at night, they are the things that I try to fight.
The way my mind speaks to me is the way I dont want it to, the things it does to me is what it shouldnt do.
The mind of another is the mind I dont have, you see, the thoughts of another person that just isnt me.
I am not normal, in fact I am far from that.
I do not wish to be different because I realise it is meant to be,
No matter the pain inside I have to be me.
God put me here for a reason, even though that is hard to believe,
I know there is no choice, i have to take what i receive.
I need no objective to be living in this place, because I know I am not living if I dont believe in my own face.
So no I wont complain as much as I have in the past, what I say now I will try to make last.