Silence speaks to me

Silently writing this pencil drops, violent thoughts run through my head stabbing, stabbing,stabbing the voices repeat, trying to hide behind my broken heart i try to ignore the one who speaks to me in my mind in my head. secretly running out of excuses as to why you didn't come to pick me up,dying romance. why cant you just say you love me why cant you just hold me up when I'm sinking. glancing at the bucket of tears that Ive collected for you, these are all the painful moments Ive cried for you,because of you. why couldn't you just be there for me.