Home Isn't As Sweet - 24/10/2005

I feel like I don't belong,
In my own home,
In my own family,
I have no where to roam.

Feeling in another life,
Not my own,
Hating every minute,
And hiding every moan.

Scared to talk to mum,
Wondering what these memories are,
Hoping to go back,
Being taken away by car.

Coming back feeling alone,
Like everyone knows me,
But me not knowing anyone,
Having mysterious memories, of things I would never see.

To scared to say something,
Acting like home is my own,
But home isn't as sweet,
Wonder why she had grown.

I'm playing her life,
Her memories, her fears,
Her family, her lover,
Her body, having her tears.

Nothings mine,
I belong to know one,
I have no one, but my self,
Which isn't even me, there is no fun.

It feels home isn't as sweet,
Since that Thursday night,
When I cried and,
We had a fight.

©Elisha L. Brain