Distant but Not Forgotten

I saw your smile today and thought
about the laughs we had...
I saw your eyes today and how they always looked so sad...
You said youd be back for me,
But its too sad to see,
My life turned out to be your only tragedy...
Now im laying on my back, always thinking about you and dad and i swear...

I saw you down the street...
I saw you growing older...
I saw you driving by...
I saw you round the corner...
Through we never speak...
cause your always out of reach...
WHy am i surprised...
You were never there for me...

Why do i think? why do i breath?
why do i see you by my side...
Why do i love? why do I hate?
Why do i beleive... that you tried...
You were never there...
I was always scared...
You were on the couch...
dad was passing out...
Sister never home...
brother on the phone...
So guess whos all alone...??
So guess whos all alone!!!???

I felt you hand on mine walking me to the park...
I felt your hair on my face, as you tucked me in after dark...
You said i would see you again...
Why did you pretend?
It was hard to understand that this was the end...
Now im sittin in this chear... always wondering if you even cared....
so...

Why dont i laugh....
why dont i cry...
why dont i think im on your mind...
Why dont i feel...
Why dont i scream...
why dont i just give up on this dream...
cause you never there...
I was always scared....
you were on the couch....
dad was passing out...
sister never home...
brother on the phone...
So guess whos all alone...
So guess whos all alone!!!???