W/O YOU

I can't smile about the little things I use to.
I can't think positive no matter what I do.
I am drowning in the day to day stresses.
I've become overwhelmed by all the little messes.
I discover more each day it's hard to get out of my bed.
I replay our last conversation, & all those things you said.
I can't track a proper routine to follow.
I'm unable to smile; I've mastered the art of wallow.

Without You
My life seems so unfair.
I'm trying to live it without you there.
I'm becoming good at finding places to run & hide.
And I'm even better at pushing people away & not letting them inside.
I've found it's safest to just disable my heart; because it stopped beating when you chose to depart.
I can't silence all this noise inside my mind.
It all leads back to what I can no longer find.

Without You
I have no more strength; I've become unnerved by you.
I can't breathe anymore; I'm starting to turn blue.
All my spirits have dissolved in this unfortunate loss.
My heart broke in two, just as it was tossed.
I'm living a nightmare & I can't wake.
This can't be happening; it must be fake.
The truth awaits me when I open my eyes to see, you're not coming back; you've moved on without me.