Emotional...

In the morning im happy and smiles...
ready for a day filled with laughs...

then at lunch i him see in line...
see him smile, laugh and have fun...
but he never laugh with me or smiles at my beauty...

i watch as he enjoy his time...
and slowly i start losing mine..
my smile turns staight...
my eyes go blank....
my heart just aches...

by the end of the day im ready to cry...
having to hold it inside...
i feel like im about to die...
i walk all alone.
In silence until i reach my home...

Then as one foot steps inside...
i feel like my walls just colide..
stop standin tall...
they just fall...
Tears rush down my face...
hot and salty is how they taste...

i hate it so..
my emotions just go...
crazy and wild...
cant stop them even for a while...

why am i so emotional drained...
why do i cry at my pain??

i hate it so much...
i hate how i feel...
everyday after skul..
i came home and cry...

i want to stop these emotional woes...
so i asked help from my very best friend....
i found him in my bathroom drawer...
all ready to explore..
my beautiful wrists...
mapping out the route it took...

i get tired after our trips...
so i fall asleep next to the bathroom sink...

i wake up...
to the pain in my wrist...
clean up my mess...
and act like wat i did never exists...