My Hell I Should Have Left Unknown

Gave shelter to my fears as my hopes melt away,
What I do tomorrow will reflect on the things I've said today,
I will sit here waiting as the tears make their tracks,
And as I said I'm sorry to them my hope I can't retract,
As I sit here waiting for the pills to kick in,
Theres nothing left inside me except I'm a deadly sin,
I hurt people whatever I do,
And truly I never mean to,
I mean why the Hell am I like this,
Why can't for once I live alone in bliss,
I know one reason why,
I'm never content and so I cry,
Every guy scares me so,
I'll never know how to love though,
And this is why I cannot go on,
Making the right path wrong,
I cannot see another cry,
For the hurt I feel and dreams to die,
So I truly will bid you farewell,
I'll take twenty or thirty pills and go to Hell.