In My Dreams

It's another day in this town,
Where the blaring red sunrise
Floods the glass of my window
And makes me open my eyes.

The morning rips me out
From the world that's in my dreams,
Where no one can see my tears,
And no one hears my screams.

It's just me inside myself,
And no one around for miles.
I don't need to pretend I'm happy.
I don't need to fake any smiles.

My scars will never matter,
And no one hopes to see
The secrets I wish not to tell,
Those things so deep within me.

But it still gets lonely in my world
Where everything is blue.
I wish I had someone to hold--
I wish I was with you.

Cause I know that when I wake
I don't know where you'll be.
It's just today and the bright world
That you are in, not me.

I wish I didn't let you go,
Cause you might be with me now.
But I never told you what I hid,
Because I didn't know how.

I'm living out this dreaded world,
And I'm living it alone.
I'm only feeling empty now,
I'm only skin and bone.

So I return to my dreamland,
With a thousand shades of azure.
Where all I can do is drown,
And cry, and be unsure.

I let myself go to that place
Where no one's heard my screams.
And hope to God you will this time
And you'll be there in my dreams.