I never wanted this hurt

Not seeing you
Knowing it is my own doing
Didnt know it would brake me so
And yet you seem glad I go

Memories make me hold on
But maybe its not enough
We use to be so strong
And now its all gone

I feel I cant get close enough
You feel like your stuck
I try so hard
And you dont give a f**k

I dont know what to do
I dont cry anymore
My tears are through

All I do is sit and stare
Wondering if you still care
The silent phone makes me think so

I dont know what to do
I dont know what to think
Im so tired
Yet I cant even blink

Im going insane
But just in my head
No one can see
that inside I bleed

F**k this s**t
I never wanted this hurt