Shut

I have so much anger that’s build up inside.
I have so many fears that I have succeeded to hide.
I want to cry sometimes, but I know it won’t help.
And sometimes I even want to die, or even hurt myself.
Everyone thinks that I’m doing well on my own.
But the truth is I hurt and I am all alone.
I want to be happy and be wanted no matter what.
But my heart wont open to no one it wants to remain shut.