Where did i lose my brother?

When you left i was still angry,
and i made out that i don't care,
after everyone had come and gone,
and said it was you who was there,

I don't want to believe it,
thought maybe it was a bad dream,
but now that i can see clearly,
it was ur face that made me scream

So yeah when you left i was angry,
and when i think about it i still am,
but Chris, can you blame me,
for acting like i don't give a damn,

i know I'll never forget that night,
although god knows i try,
all i want is that brother back,
i think its obvious why.

Where did i lose my brother,
was it a long time ago?
Should i have done something different,
should i just let it go

funny that you use to protect me,
now i protect myself from you,
don't you realize your killing me,
but i'm not the only one more importantly your killing u.

Maybe this has been another chapter in my life,
another page in my book,
wish i could change it,
yet i don't know who writes it, i don't know where to look.

So what if I'm still angry,
according to everyone i'm allowed, but,
unlike everyone i don't think your crazy,
i just want you to be you.

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