My world

Dreams Destroying my dreams as i sleep
How can hurry reach so deep?
Waking up with a new day always brings me tears
Waking up always with these fears

Sadness overwhelms my soul
Deep darkness covering up my deep black hole
Sadness crawls though my heart
Where does it end? How did it start?

No one can understands this pain
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain
lost on earth almost feels like I'm not alive
lost in feelings it's hard to survive

Why does it have to be me
If only the future i could see
Afraid of the shadows in the dark
Will this ever leave a mark?

Unseen tears flowing to my heart
I must go on play my part
live had to continue for me today
living my life, come what may

So much to be thankful for
How can i ask for anymore
I wish this could go away
For me to have a natural day

To know I'm not the only one
Helps a little, but the feelings no fun
even god seems oh so far away
who can brighten up my day

Sick and tires of fighting this feeling
I'm want to stop and start believing
I hate the way i look and take
It almost feels unreal and totally fake

What can i do where can i go?
It feels almost impossible i just don't feel so
wondering when this will all end
isn't there an angel he can send?

Not much to say now
just wondering why what and how
again pulling myself together
i just hope this feeling don't last forever.