My soul died with yours

Memories of us still haunt my mind
The nights we spend together
The times I fell asleep in your arms
The promises of love
The promises of hope
The promises that you’ll always be by my side
I look at the photographs we took together
We looked so happy, so in love
You were my first love, my first kiss
It’s hard to believe we ended this way
It’s hard to believe you’re gone
It’s hard to face another day without you here
Without your touch
Without your hold
Without your love
It’s hard to face another day knowing that you won’t be next to me
I feel this emptiness inside of me
No matter how hard I try nothing seems to be able to fill it
My heart has stopped beating
The blood in my veins has stopped flowing
The tears in my eyes are dried up
My whole inside is empty
My soul is slowly dying
Why do I still feel this way?
Why won’t the memory of that awful day fade away?
I still remember seeing the doctor come out of the your room with your mother
I still remember the sadness in her eyes as tears falls down her cheek
The doctor comes up to me and tells me I’m fine and healthy and that I was lucky to have survived
I ask about you
He says that you’re fine
I know he’s lying his eyes betrayed him
It shows sadness and sorrow
I also see it in your mother’s eyes
The sadness, the sorrow
Now I know what this emptiness is
I tried to cry but my tears were frozen
With a shaky voice I asked
“He’s dead isn’t he?”
Your mother started to cry
And the doctor only nods
I sink to my knees
You were gone
Never to come back to me
The only person who saw behind my mask
Now I understand why my soul felt like it was dying
That day and why this pain won’t go away
Because it felt your soul pass away and along with it so did mine.