Missing You

It's been four years
Since you died
There are still so many tears
Being cried
No one ever expected
This to be
It just happened
Very unexpectedly
I was lying in bed
And everyone knew but me
I was so scared to get up
To see what was happening
My cousin came up
To see if I was still asleep
She saw I wasn't
And began to weep
I asked her what had happened
And she began to say
Ryan is no longer with us
To this day
Pain filled my heart
And tears filled my eyes
I said to myself
This is a dream
It's all lies
I didn't want to believe
What she had said
But it was true
You were really dead
There was nothing I could do
And nothing I could say
To bring you back to life
That very day
I was so upset
That I didn't get to say good-bye
All I could do
Was sit there and cry
Why did this have to happen
How can this really be
Were all of the questions
Running through me
I thought you were the best
God's gift to this world
I always wished
I wasn't your cousin
So I could be your girl
But now you're in heaven
Where I will be someday
So save me a place beside you
Because that is where
I am going to stay