*Like awakening from a torturing dream. My freight overtakes every little reaction as to what has just taken place. Appalled by what I attempted to do. To take my own life and be so selfish as to what others would feel. What would i be achieving by slaying my own strength in situations so harsh? Proving to every soul that i am no longer that strong spirit i used to be. Up until this point in time , everything collapsed , shattering every emotion causing actions that are beyond my control. Like i was possessed by some demon that manipulated me into creating such hate to wards myself. Foreshadowing myself in a casket of sorrow . But realizing the love I\'ve received by so many, prevented me from Lucifer\'s embrace.
