~Your abuse~

You look at me with empty eyes
because you know i been telling lies

by the smile that i put on
you could tell something was wrong

i lowered me head knowing i was disaproved and continue to caress my arm so that it wouldn't move

you came up to me with a pityful look on your face

you hit me once and then you hit me twice

by now i could tell that you were just being nice

i deserved more for what i had done
i had broke our promise about me not having my fun

the fun of my blades
when they slid down my wrist

the fun which im reminded of everytime you swung your fist

every hit was for every cut
every hit i took the more i wanted everything to stay shut

shut my secrets shut your abuse
but i deserve it more then anyone
i have no excuse

i hold my wrist as it was something good
but i know i deserve everything i get
everything i should

the scars are hiding under my rolled down sleeve
and im just glad that it time to leave