I cant take it anymore.

I cant take it anymore!
The pain wont go away.
Ive felt it many times before.
My world is dismay.
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Is this what you wanted?
Is this what you needed?
My life is daunted.
You succeeded.
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Im exposed to your decisions.
Your life reflects on mine!
There are no divisions.
There is no line.
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You hurt me so much.
Yet I don't think you know it.
I cannot stand your touch.
I just wish you would quit.
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Im leaving this note.
Because I couldn't take it anymore.
These feelings were caught in my throat.
They became to hard to ignore.
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I just wanted to tell you.
Before it became impossible to sustain.
Everything I say is true.
And any chance to be normal you have slain.
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Your one of the reasons I wake up at night.
Crying, because im here alone.
The only reason I write.
Is so my feelings are etched in stone.
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I want you to know these things.
Incase of the worst.
I only wish you knew what I bring.
You would be the first.
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Just don't bury me a lie Mom.
Dont pretend that you didnt know I was depressed.
My heart is a ticking time bomb.
It was a burden I couldnt digest.
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Just allow me to rest in peace.
It is my grave site I wish you to ignore.
You've put my life in a constant decrease
And I cant take it anymore...

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