Kiss Of betrayal

I feel so alone
in this crowded room
with no one to stand by me
or push me through

every things changing
nothings gone right
i find myself crying
in the middle of the night

i see the world different
through blood-shot eyes
trying to find smiles
buried beneath cries

i cant take it back
whats done is done
the pain in this life
all i can do is run

run from the fears
that are holding me back
escape from the memories
that try to attack

killing me slowly
with each breath i take
dieing inside
my world begins to quake

wake up in the morning
a brand new day
paint on your smile
and move on your way

so everyone can see
the smile thats not real
go home and cry
do you feel what i feel?

yes, i caused hurt
and its all of my fault
i should have learned the first time
at least thats what i thought

but stupid Ol' me
killed someone again
maybe not physically
but emotionally shes dead

i don't know how much more
that girl can handle
with all of my sorries
and the way i would ramble

but sorry doesn't cut it
when you reach ropes end
when the hurt that you've caused
destroyed your best friend

what a friend i was
to stoop so low
and with a "kiss of betrayal"
i let my Friend go!