I miss her.dedication to my dear sister

What i didn't know how to do,
Was to say goodbye,
What was the good in goodbye,
my friend once asked me,
and i started to cry,
No one knew how this girl felt,
Deep in heart,
she silently fell,
Not knowing what would happen,
The next day,
The whole day saddened,
As people found out she passed away,
Feeling motionless,
I couldn't help thinking,
lying on my bed restless,
as thoughts started sinking,
I grabbed a box of tissues,
As my tears melted in,
Cause of one issue,
i didn't know why i started to sing,
closing my eyes,
Darkness was all i saw,
All i heard were cries,
As i started to fall,
goodnight were her last words,
spoken from her very own lips,
Now shes a Dove,
This girl i can no longer keep,
I wanna scream so loud that the earth would shake,
for this,
one mistake,
This Sis i miss,
But i know we can't go back in time,
life goes on,
I'm trying my best to make this poem rhyme,
Mummy and daddy still moan,
As i paint a picture,
of a sunset i never saw,
In my mind i pictured her,
I listen to her every call,
She would slap me,
She would shout angrily,
these are my memories,
Even though their mean,
I'm waiting for that one day,
Where i go where she is now,
I'll wait its Kay,
I'm just understanding how,
I hope shes having fun,
Shes gets that eternal walk with God,
Above the clouds above the sun,
Happy as she can be,
Thats all,
I wanna see,
this time she won't fall,
She left behind her past,
but now she forever lives ,
this love for her will forever last,
Theres nothing more i can give,
I pray that She'll visit me someday,
Shine the light,
I pray,
To just catch a sight,
of her beautiful smile,
her cheerful laughter,
I'll run a mile,
I'm still holding on to her,
My fingers tightly gripped,
She is a diamond,a pearl,
I promise her i won't slip,
This was so unexpected,
life is full of surprises,
feeling so rejected,
as then sun sets,as the sun rises,
I'd listen to her songs,
Three doors down the hall,
They'd ring me like a gong,
But now it doesn't matter at all,
I'd replay videos in my head,
of this girl,
who is now dead,
its one heck of a swirl,
My heart still feeling light,
Ever since that day she left,
Ever since we flew our first kite,
she was out of sight,
Though her body lays on earth,
her spirit lives on in heaven,
her favorite lucky seven,
This poem is long,
but every word i mean,
I'd already made a song,
hope you listened to me.
I regretted everything,
I hope you'll forgive my sin,
My dear sister,
I miss you,
You are a star,
You are a angel,
you are a daughter,
you are a friend,
you are a cousin,
you are a sister.

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