Now But Always.

Thanks to the needs of someone else,
I am forced to cut myself.
I know you will say it's my life,
But with all his shit, i am forced to the knife.
I don't wanna die,
Although the thought crossed my mind.
Yes the thought may have more than one occurred,
No one knew how much i truly hurt.
To everyone who ever thought that i was whole again,
The cuts on my arm are proof of my pain.
The only way i will win this fight,
Is if i receive a miracle tonight.
I'm sorry that i tell the truth,
But i use the advantage through my youth.
I cannot tell a lie,
I have wished die.
I have wished to place a black rose at someones door,
But now i wish that no more.
I have grown and i have seen,
All the things they could have been.
But they too were victims to their self,
And of the effects of someone else.
I never wanna end up like they did,
I never wanna be a "poor little kid".
I don't wanna hurt you all on my leave,
Because i would never want to give the chance to grieve.
I never wanna leave you all, i never will,
Because through it all... i am here still!

*~Had A Low Day Today, Needed To Get Some Pain Out... Hope You Like~*