I miss him yet wish he was gone

I miss his touch,
like morning dew,
so pure and clean it was.

i miss his smile,
like the stars above,
making my day worth while.

but while i miss him,
i hate his guts,
and wish for him to go.

i want to never see him again,
i want to be able to forget and let go.

i miss him as friend so kind,
i miss him as a wall to lean on,
i miss him like i miss the sun.

but while i miss him,
while i miss his smile,
i also wish that he was gone.

i don't miss the way he made me feel,
i don't miss the way i have become,
i don't miss the hurt at all and wish that he was gone.

i miss him so much,
yet i want him to go,
to leave me in peace,
to let me forget.

but i know if he does go,
i know that i'll hurt,
i know that i'll miss him more,
but be happy yet.