Why?

Why is this happening?
Why now?
Why do i get unhappy,
When i had just eased that frown?

Why isn't it enough?
Why does the blade control me?
Even at night,
Its like i cant breathe?

Losing blood,
Too much,
Too fast,
Too painlessly.

It should hurt more,
I need it to,
I'll hurt myself repeatedly,
Until my arms are black and blue.

Even when i close my eyes,
I still hear it,
It makes me cry,
The voices just wont quit.

Why do i find myself,
Thinking these awful things,
I cant wait till i find out,
Just how much my death will sting.

When the rainb0ws just |00k |ike fr0wns, and the skies are grey bey0nd be|ief.