I have
Forgotten why I am waiting
My nervous Sweat stains the air stronger than my armpits
The noxious liquids burn off my skin
Mixed thoroughly with the floating translucent thoughts, always the thoughts
Often transcending down towards my body
into sharp cutting edges
gashes I take
and cuts that will heal
underneath the scar lies my mortality
the places where I wont be saved
I bleed into myself
And so I am alone
Confusion and Lust
Love and Hate
Stand exalted above me
Placing their commandments
On my shoulders wistfully
My own muse weighs down on me
The mighty cross too mighty for me
Presses down through my body
And through me
Shredded by dull heavy objects
I am no matyr or saint
Just another child who can�¯�¿�½t handle his own inherent mistake
I hope you are better
I do not want for you to weep when I am not there
Or when I won�¯�¿�½t be anything but a ever decreasing hurt in your sex
a longer time in between forced memory
We will forget together
And that will be our only lasting connection
For once I ask
God give me the strength to stand up to what I have to take
