Just let me be me

Let me hind in this closet
Let me just stay here away from your screaming
Away from the pain
The pain I feel because of you
The bruises maybe gone but the pain and scar aren't
I can still hear your voice telling me how useless I am
I can still hear every painful thing you said
Just let me hind in this closet
Because I can't take handle the fakeness that awaits me outside
I'm sorry I can't be that little girl I once was
You may wonder where she is
But guess what
She dead that day when I felt pain for the first time
I'm tried of being fake
Being that good little girl of yours
Your thinking I'm changing to someone I'm not
But guess what this is the real me
I'm sorry I'm not the daughter you wanted
But you killed that little girl that once was real
I'm tried of smiling when all I want to do is cry
So let me hind in this closet
Where I can't hear your screaming about how much of a failure I am
I hear you coming closer to where I hind
Why won't you just let me be in this closet that takes me to a world where I can be happy, a world were I feel no pain
If Michael Jackson has never land
Why can't I have this small dark closet?
I hear you opening the door to my room
I hear you walking closer to closet
Why can't you see that no matter how hard I try I can't fake being that prefect daughter anymore
I have change the real me is out I can't put her back and I won't
I'm sorry I can't be that perfect daughter I once was in your eyes
But if only you read what I write and feel
You'll know that it's not my friends or the world to blame for making me this way
It's you with your screaming about how useless I am
It all started that day when I felt pain, betray and hate for the first time
And slowly your making me want to just give up and welcome death with open arms
Show me that you really do love me
By closing the door
So I can't hear your screaming about how I do everything wrong and how useless I am
I do try but I can't be that little girl I once were
I can't see the world with the innocent eyes that I once saw it with
I can't turn my back on the darkness that hides in the world
Because I felt its pain and it killed that girl that I once were
The little girl then did everything right in your eyes
Please just close the door
You won't like the real me and I can't be a fake no more
And once again I'm sorry I can't be that little girl that did everything right in your eyes because she dead a long time ago