I lost myself

I'm sitting here, crying
Looking at your pic
I'm so frustrated and I can't breathe
I can't help to feel so sick

You broke my heart and took my soul
I can't seem to find myself again
I've never been so broken, ever so sad and down
But I have to play pretend

To be happy without you in my life
Though it's really hard
To fake a smile on my face
When we are apart

But this isn't me, I once used to be happy
But now, I'm just a sad and lonely girl
You took away all of my bliss when you left
And destroyed my world

And it's even harder
To watch you walking by with her
Telling her the things you told me
Just thinking of it hurts

So much that I can't breathe
I cry and cry, again
And every day it is the same
I just can't get rid of this pain

These feelings, they stick to me
I can't rub off, my hate and jealousy
Everytime I see you
Kissing her instead of me

And I wonder..all the promises you made to me
Where have they gone?
Everything you said to me
All just came undone

You left me in the cold
And now I feel so numb
I trusted you and gave you all I had
How could I be so dumb?

To believe that love will stay with me
That my dreams finally came true
Now I have to pay the cost
I lost myself when I lost you..