Until the Very End

When it is dark at night
I stare up at the shadows
Cast by streetlamps outside bright
Upon the darkened ceiling

Now into the late night
Flashes of memories come to mind
Of our virtual conversation fight
That was not of typical type

You scared me by the way
You acted you didn't care
Like you wanted out that day
To no longer be friends again

I ran out of the room
Afraid of what might come
Of later or soon
That our friendship would end

To wipe the tears
I came back with a tissue
And your gift from past years
Came the teddy stuffy bear

I was close to breaking down
Frustrated and upset
I could hear my heart pound
As I tried to explain

Going on at me
You continued online
I told you I was not listening
Over the phone line

I stared out of the window in tears
Wondering what had become
Of our friendship these years
Leaving you to scold me at the screen

I wished the wind would dry my eyes
But I came back at last to read
And it never ventured to try
I waited out, talking to space

I gave up on talking
To the air
And told you to stop dallying
I wanted to speak

I threw out all my thoughts
Without a single care
Of what you might have thought
Though hurt it might have caused

I am sorry if it did

I confessed all
That I could put to words
I smashed down the mental wall
That blocked me from telling you

After I was through
You questioned me back
Breaking your self-set rule
Telling me the truth

Only then did I realize
Through we might quarrel a lot
We are somewhat alike
In spite of all the fights

We seem so different to the world
Yet inside have similarities
What more do we not know
That is just like this?

Suicide we both contemplated
But are still alive today
Yet if you ever go later
I'll be just one step behind you

Compared with fiction we did
All those character traits
I wonder if you ever asked
-How much are we the same?-

You can never seem to trust me
Now weeks after that day
You can never seem to see
That I would always be there

I hope you know I trust you
Forever and a day
I hope on this you trust me too
Until we fade away

I just want you to know
That I will always be there
I'd be there to hear you out
Anytime, any day

I'll try to do my best
To help you through tough times
To come up with some jest
To lightened up the day

I hope you know this to be true
That I would be there for you
Until our rivers bend
Until out paths of life differ
Until the very end

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Copyright 2005 Lysaria
For my extremely close friend Luthien, this is what truly happened and how I truly feel. Please rate and comment. I'll return the favor. Thanks