Daddy

This life is just horrible without in it.
It rips me apart each, when your not here by my side to guide me.
I see this long dark tunnel that I am stuck in forever but, I have to stay strong for everyone else and not to loose those moments with you i had. There is not a day I don't think about you. You will always be apart of my life. I know your watching over me right now as I write this and wishing you were hear. I felt so bad to see you suffer everyday. I couldn't do anything just be by your side. When you passed apart of my heart and life just went away. Not to see your face killed me inside. The pain is unbearable. I have to go on with my life without a father. Who won't walk me down the aisle. Who won't see me graduate school. Who won't see my children. It kills me everyday to think that. But I just have to remember the time you were with me. You were not always the best dad at sometimes but i could i understand what you had to go though. My mom for two years kept a secret from all of us. She knew he was gonna die from cancer. At the end we tried everything but, nothing helped. We just had to hold on to those days when you were here. I will go though life not knowing what it would like having a father. But, this time in life i just have to eat it all up and spit it back out.
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R.I.P 4/14/05