Is That Really Me?!?!

When you look into my eyes, tell me what u see
Tell me honestly, is it really me?
Do you see the darkness, sorrows, scars and pain
And the sadness that runs through every vain?

Is that really me with eyes so red
And thoughts of suicide running through my head
Come on please tell me, is that me
Tell me quick for I cannot see

Is that really me with trembling hands
Shouting out loud "No one understands"
Is that really me crying at night
Lying in bed giving up the fight

Is that really me smoking all those drugs
And leaving behind all the ones that I love
Come on please tell me, is that me
Tell me quick for I cannot see

That cant be me running away
I've never ran from just one bad day
That cant be me lying on the ground
Lying still, not making a sound

That cant be me with a knife in my hand
Lying still on the cold, wet land
That cant be me they're all crying for
I've cause them pain and so much more

Yea thats me who tried to take her own life
I was so mixed up I wanted to die
Yea thats me on that hospital bed
I'm not breathing, I must be dead

I was so young why did I take my life
What drove me to pick up that knife
I was so young and I had much to do
Now I guess I'll never get to

I had a dream, I wanted to fall in love
With someone sent from above
I had a dream to become a mother
A wife, a friend, and a lover

What caused this pain that takes my life
What made me bleed with the cut of a knife
What caused this pain, it hurt so much
Was it harmful words or a harmful touch

Now I sit in this room and waiting is all I can do
I'll sit here and wait and pray I make it through
Pray I make it through to heaven
Pray that God will let me in

Well here he comes so I must go
He's telling me that he loves me so
He says he's giving me another chance at life
As long as I promise to never touch another knife

So when you look into my eyes tell me what you see
I'll tell you to look deeper until you find the real me
I'm no longer that saddened girl that you once knew
And I owe it all to God he pulled me through