I can't forget

Thoughts of us keep me awake
the ifs, the whens, the whys
I try so hard to let you go
but the tears won't leave my eyes.

I retraced every memory we ever made
still, the answers just won't come
I was in love, I thought you were too
how could I have been so dumb?

I listened to every fear you had
I even held you while you cried
you said you've never felt like this
now it hurts to know you lied.

I let you get inside my heart
the one you bruised, then shattered
I was the only one who cared
and to you, I never mattered.

I won't let the hurt get the best of me
I'll take each new day in stride
and once I feel my heartache has healed
I'll no longer hold the pain inside.