My secret lilttle world

I've made my own fantasy, its living in my head
I protects me from myself, torture and from the pain
There are invisible walls surrounded me, that keep me cased inside
But my walls must be cracking because I'm feeling it again

The insults and the laugh hurt so deep inside
I push through each fearful day, my pain i try and hide
I get angry very easily, but cover up my fears
Each night i cry silent crystal tears

I put on a brave face, and smile like all the other
But no one really knows or understands the pain that i suffer
I smile and i laugh, and joke around its true
But I'm never rally happy I'm always feeling blue

So to hide the pain i feel and what is deep inside
I cover up with this happy face and continue to hide
My secret little world protects from all the pain
But I'm trying to build me world so i can be happy again