Suicidal drama

Dry tears of fear run down my face,
trying to cope, I cannot do.
feelings stumble out of my mouth,
without me even talking.
I feel the cold blade run across my wrist,
the feelings flowing through my blood.
I smile with a relief,
as my pain is fully gone.
but after a while it comes back,
so i run to the kitchen again.
hoping my feelings will run away from me.
But as I reach for that certain blade,
my mother sneaks in and catches me slicing through my skin.
She gasps in horror,
How could she have not known?
The bloody "fight" stains on her clothes,
The scars from "falling" on her arms,
How stupid could she be?
Not to realize,
Not to have noticed,
She needed me and was crying for me,
Yet I never listened,
Not once,
I'm sorry hunny, but im here now,
Don't seek attension this way,
So as you see my mother is an idiot,
She thinks I'm begging for attension,
When really I want to leave all the attension of life behind..