Do you know what it's like...

Do you know what it's like
To lose the ones you love
To find out your true soul mate
Was not really from above?
Do you know what it's like
To know the one who made you complete
Was just nothing more
Than a simple, realistic dream?
Do you know what it's like
To see pain just written on the wall
To see objects moving
And everyone else thinks it's just nothing at all?
Do you know what it's like
To see a friend dying
To feel all alone
To know you're the one who made your mom start crying?
Do you know what it's like
To feel just like a pawn
To have to feel every bit of restlessness
Before the sky is colored dawn?
Do you know what it's like
To feel like you're nothing
To know the one you depend on
Makes you want to start running?
Did you ever feel
A hard swift lblow
In your back, on your chest, to even see blood flow?
Do you know what it's like
To be related to someone anorexic?
Do you know how it feels
To not feel worth it?
I feel these every day
But I try so hard to ignore it
Because I'm strong
I'm too busy smiling to pay for it
I see a cracked mirror
Both halves split in two
One side is my evil
The other is my good
I do not care too much
I see what no one else sees
I see two sides fighting
For the better half of me