Crying out of pain

Never wanted to love again,
Then overcome by something never felt before.

Taking over my body,
As if I were paralyzed.

Not just a passion;
More like a dream.

The dream of my life,
My purpose of breathing.

A feeling so beautiful,
Too good to be true.

Things dont matter,
Love is all I need.

And then,
A crash.

Split hearts,
Though were sworn to be one forever.

A lonely cry,
Reaching out to him, who caused it.

Alone,
Longing for only the one person.

Crying and searching for help,
From nobody but him.

Try to get over it,
Try to hate him.

Cant get myself to think about anybody else.
I want him, his lovemaking, his hug, his kiss
Him alone.

Memories,
Wishing for those moments to never end.

But he isnt ready.
Not ready for a real life.

What now,
Thought our love was endless?

Thoughts about never ending love,
Stabbed and shot.

Over,
Is my dream really over?

Pain that one cannot explain,
Worse then being skinned alive, worse then anything in this world.

Death,
the dying of my soul.

No medicine, nothing helps

Thoughts of us?

Would it work again? What if it doesntt?
What if we\'re not supposed to be?
But what if we were?

Souls drop, cry myself to sleep,
wishing to sleep for months.

Dreading every painful day,
Ending up with a lost heart and soul.