Your Loss

You chose to go the other way,
and that is quite alright.
I know now on the other hand,
it wasn't worth the fight.

You took me right to hell and back
And I don't understand
Why I stayed up at night to kiss
your forehead and your hand

The love I felt for you my dear
was crazy that I know.
You treated me with pure neglect
and yet I watched your show.

The lies you told, the shit you did
Was all just make believe
As you were only waiting out
For her to come for your relief.

What you don't know, sickly enough
I loved you more then she will do,
But you were focused just on facts
And what she looked like next to you.

I am not great and perfect true,
But yes I understand
The value that I had in you
That you just took for granted

But this is what u wanted bad,
I knew that all this time,
I cant force love on someone that
Wants her looks more then the heart of mine.

And in the end I happy stand
Not having wasted all my life
With someone that solely cares
For superficial goals to strive.

And the moral of all this is
My love was not for him at all
But for the lessons that that I learned
While managing how not to fall

I do not need to measure up,
To someone you find flawless,
Thats silly and just not my thing,
cuz I deserve exclusiveness.

So now I am the only one
Who came out of this smarter
Knowing now not to break down
For someone worth no quarter

Still I stay true to my believes
And don't pretend to be better
Then what I really am deep down
Cuz that is all that matters.

Take me the way I am for real,
or forget and let it be,
Its your pure loss,
and definitely just some luck for me.

written 08-07