Giving Up The Chase

Bad timing, regrets and insecurity,
I still feel bad though you say you've forgiven me.

I know it hurt, but it needed to be said,
when I was re-assured it wasn't all in my head.

I'm no fool, my eyes were never closed,
with my head held up high and happy smile, I posed.

Did you really think that I couldn't see?
Did you honestly believe that I was as okay as i tried to be?

Do I not give myself enough credit for how well I act?
Tell me, is she better than me? Does she possess everything I lacked?

You hurt me so bad, but it was an itch I always knew would be scratched,
Now I'm left with my tears, and a heart roughly patched.

I knew I couldn't leave without saying what I needed to say,
but all I seemed to do was put myself in the grave where I now lay.

You say 'lets just forget about it',
but I don't think you heard.
And it seems that mine were the only emotions that were stirred.

you don't have "my blessings",
though I know it's not my place,
But this is where I let go, I'm giving up the chase.