Trying

You look at me and smile
I look at you and try not to cry
You dont know what Im going through
My pretty smile is nothing but a lie

You say youre glad things are getting better
And that you like to see me when I smile
All I can do is tell you
This smile hasnt been real for a while

You say that all the things you say to me
Everything is real
And I cant help but not understand
Why they make me feel how I feel

No one can understand
Or see the pain inside
Its something Im learning to live with
Its something Ive learned to hide

I just cant get past this
Nothing seems to go right
I dont see a point anymore
Life is going out of sight

Why cant things go back to normal
Or at least just stay the same
This life is pretty crazy
Like one messed up deadly game

Im going to try just one more time
So please smile and try not to worry
But if things dont turn out as planed
Please just know Im sorry