Breaking a heart slowly

If I could tell you how much this hurt me
More than it could hurt you
I'd have to set my pain free
Torturing me, coiling my insides in a screw

I feel like light headed again
Your heart wasn't enough to break my fall
We're not going to be all smiles and kisses in the end
I have to leave now, leaving you at a stall

I'll never get to feel this unknowingly
So kill my slowly
I swear to you on everything I am
I just have to let this end

I've been hurting for a while
I've been walking for miles
Just to see your face
But all I see is myself falling from grace

Let the sun scorch the skies
Like that time I died
Everything I could ever be
Everything that we'll never see

What am I doing to us
What have I done
I left you out in the rain watching your love rust
Looking down my shotgun isn't fun

I know what it's like when memories break your heart
I know what it's like to feel the pain from the start
I know how to break it
My problem is I can't take it.