~Not sure if this is the right category fo this poem, tell me if you think it should go some where else~
In this night of early winter,
I watch my mind reminisce,
upon the happiness that is lost
Faded away into my mind's own enigmatic abyss.
But in my mind already riddled
with a tormented agony,
The feelings that were lost
account to nothing more than a aperture
that is just another void,
in need of filling
But It was more than I thought
A hole turn into the very tissue of my mind
What feelings would not leave,
Were only those too heinous that I could not Forget
Too many feelings left that I intensely grieve
So many thoughts run through my mind
Perplexing further an already complex mentality
The feelings I had were in a cryptic code
Like a thousand labyrinthine corridors,
The path to my understanding
Would soon destroy my sanity
I must still walk through the maze of my mind
For all the memories and joy
that has faded away,
has left an anguish in myself
that would tear any man's soul apart
I need to seek a crux of these thoughts
It is what I need to find
To reach a final Understanding,
Of what is truly in my mind
But I will fail before I begin
My heart is dead
my soul has failed,
my mind is blank
My rationality is gone
I can no longer reason what is real
My body is broken
I've failed to save my spirit
Everything faded away
It is terrible to know
That a mind can have such paroxysms of pain
When all light from it's thoughts have died
No one will be able to help
And the only end
Is to destroy itself.
