Heard Enough

I gave her up with out a moments hesitation
only fighting the delima
i love him
i love her
i love them
i love so many
but in the past i promised my heart
i tried to pry it away
thinking i had it
he still held it
for i took nothing but hopes
i took nothing but dreams
but also i no i took if not a part
but his whole heart
so here i stand holding it
feeling like i just unbuired it
he confessed once again
his love for me still is deep
i never gave him up
first loves never truely die
if anything
with time they grow
and without a moments notice it hits u
u want them
of all the cowboy songs
singing of love that was right there but never seen
i over looked this possibility
2 times i was wrong
but as they say
3rd times the charm
although i hate to admit it
i no he may hurt
but id like one more chance
i no this isnt false
i no its not untruthful
i just hope hes not ashamed of how he feels
that he truely nos
i no what i want
no what i need
i need one more chance
i gave him plenty
i need him to give me another
mabie this is what i craved for
forever ive been trying to fill a peice of me
but i now see the peice thats missing
is the key
hes always been the key
the key to unlock me
from miles away his face brought me joy
something i havent felt for so long!
i love him
i want him
i need him
and dammit i deserve him!

*i just really hope he wants the same thing if not then well whatever ill survive...but i miss him more than others!*

-Kristina

-ok very old poem...was actually written when I was straight..very long ago with him