Promise

Nothing hurts more
then your voice repeating in my head
"you lied to me...why?"

i'm sorry i lied
i'm sorry i cut
i'm sorry i even exist

what do you want me to do?
tell you the truth and watch you get hurt?
i promised you i'd never do it again

You tell me a promise is a promise
and it i must keep
it will be really hard
but all i can hear is

"Why did you lie to me?
I thought we were always going to tell each other the truth?
How could you do this Amanda
You lied to me"

i'm sorry i broke my promise
i'm sorry that i had lied
but you have no idea
what my lifes like

too many lies
too many tears
too many wonds that would't heal
too much of a broken heart
it will never be whole again.