Im shutting down

I know theres over people,
who live the same as i,
but that don't help my problems,
still i wanna cry.

each days an uphill struggle,
someone else to put me down,
i no longer wanna talk,
from me your hear, no sound.

tell me what is the point,
why shouldn't i use this knife,
its the only way i cope,
cause i realy hate my life.

no one real cares for me,
they just walk past and laugh,
why is it god chose me,
this ever decreasing path?

i cry myself to sleep each night,
Ive given up all hope,
don't no what to do no more,
my knifes not enough to cope.

should i let them win,
and take all of these pills?
cant handle all this heartache,
that i constantly feel.

your probably all wondering why,
is it i feel like this,
its from the moment i was born,
not a day has gone a miss.

i had a dad that used to hit me,
and a mum that wasn't there,
truant oh to many times,
6 times put into care.

i really could go on and on,
but i am so confused,
I'm looking at my broken body,
that iv so badly abused.

i hate myself for doing it,
again,it makes me cry,
all i wanna do right now,
is shut down,and die.