My Moment of Weakness...

The night that everything changed,
I remember it so well.
The night I started to lose my grip,
Into your trap I fell.

I fell for your lies of pleasure,
Alluring from the start.
I believed you when you told me,
That you could mend my heart.

Another day of an awful life,
I never thought I would feel so low.
So I picked up that blade, held it to my wrist,
And the blood began to flow.

A river of crimson tears,
Making drops upon the floor.
An expression of the pain I feel,
Leaving me wanting more.

In an instant I felt it,
Relieving the pain that I had.
Could something that felt so good,
Possibly be all that bad?

Days slowly went past,
You were all I knew.
My whole life,
It only revolved around you.

My world was black,
Living in an endless night.
I was in an everlasting battle,
Just searching for the light.

You were all that kept me going,
In my so called life.
Every time that things got tough,
I would pick up that knife.