I Had it Bad

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I well continue the same you already know the name.

I had it bad when i was little and was bein abused.
Thats just the start of this tragic news.

I had it bad just by hearing your name i knew not i did to deserve this pain.
I was good yet you made me cry then hit me again and said stop because i was the reason why you beat me.
The first time it began you said Emanuel yourself is to blame.

I had it bad back in the day when i could not hold a ball.
There were no games even i could play.
I stayed by myself and talked to myself at the age of eleven i wanted to know nobody else.

I had it bad when i first felt love and it was taken away from me now the only person that is left to love me is well me.
So as i can see you were my heart and even for you i took your pain but how did you pay me back by leaving me with nothing and no one.