Unable to control

Life
Hurt
Pain
Smile
The list goes on
So many feelings so many emotions
Spinning out of control
My mind unable to cope
Unable to control everything
This needs to stop I need 2 stop thinking
Just for a moment just... STOP!!
Stop thinking stop caring stop worrying
I don't need any of this stuff
I don't need you looking at me like I'm nothing
And I don't need you telling me that you don't like anything that I am
I don't understand what joy every1 gets from pushing me round
And putting me down
It's not fun for me you stand and laugh
While tears well up in my eyes
But you don't notice you just think its all fun
That its just a joke right
Well guess what it's just not funny
Iâ??ve had people judging me my whole life and I'm sick of it
Stop being so selfish and think what I might be thinking
Cause what's going on inside this brain isn't pretty