Slip Away To The Black.

I'm loosing sleep and I'm loosing saline,
These tears are non-stop, like my nightmare dreams.
I can't feel my fingertips from all the blood loss,
Thought I promised myself that this path I'd not cross.

I reached for the blade and drew my art,
Foolish was I to even promise my heart.
Never again will I set myself up for lies,
I won't say anything if I will not comply.

How many times will I fall this way from the fence?
Every time I start leaning I start to get tense.
Back to the dark side floats my mind to the pain,
I'll absorb this all up and bow my head in shame.

My mascara tears fall and soak into my pillows,
I hate how no matter what, this is how it goes.
I wanted to break free of this negativity,
But I see now, that this is what was made for me.

I slit my wrist and tilt my head back,
And watch slowly as it turns to black.
No more tears, no more pain to feel,
I can now escape this bullshit and heal.

Sarah Gammon ©
12/24/05

I'm not cutting, and I'm not planning suicide. I wanted to write like I used to. How'd I do?
Thanks for reading -xxx-.